It’s worse than pain
when the memories come loose inside of me
you’re voice howls in my mind
sending me into an infinite pool of darkness
and I remember how my little stomach clenched in fear
when you whispered your ugly unwanted thoughts.
I hated you more than
anyone alive,
I hear your wrathful words eternally
like a stinging echo in my head
and I often wish you would raise from the dead
so I could tell you how I hate you so!
Unthinkable injustice, more than
mind can comprehend.
Unthinkable in every aspect,
unthinkable without end.
Deep within the soul of a man
Dark and controlled; unthinkable.
The need to measure and to weigh,
the need for justice now prevails…
As grain by grain of sand is placed
upon those waiting scales.
Pound for pound, ounce for ounce,
eye for eye and tooth for tooth.
Measured, meted, sifted out,
searching for what is truth.
Unthinkable injustice, more than
mind can comprehend.
Unthinkable in every aspect,
unthinkable without end.
Justice soon demands it’s due and
then becomes dire need!
Upon my knees I fall once more,
Holy Spirit, Intercede!
Break apart the darkness that seeks
to dwell within the corridors of my mind.
Break the hardness in my heart
and bring to me Your sweet rest.
Send your army Lord I pray
Fight the dark ones that seek to prey
I am weak and need Your peace.
Hear on my knees
I seek You oh Lord,
with all that is left.
Unthinkable injustice, more than
mind can comprehend.
Unthinkable in every aspect,
unthinkable without end.
~L
Posted in My favorite posts, Poems by ~L
Tagged abuse, fear, God, hope, Poems by ~L, prayer, uthinkable
Scared
Terrified
Deathly terrified
of what is
of what was
and what is going to come
…of what has always been.
Fear
Ashamed
I can’t hear His voice anymore
I am at the end of me
I am just in need of one night
one night of rest
one day filled with hope
~L
“I forgot to hope this nights been so long
I cling to your promise…
their will be a dawn.
The best I can do is just pray through the day
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
and though I can’t understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back some day…
and see how you brought beauty from pain”
~Supperchick
Okay God, I get it… I know… (deep breath in) I am yours… mold me from this wreck… I do trust in You.
Posted in Poems by ~L
Tagged depressed, fear, lost, music, pain, Poems by ~L, sad, youtube video
Ingredients:
1 small child
1 evil monster
1 dark corner
1 whole heart
2 cups of darkness
4 cups touches
1 cup pain
2 lbs tears
2 heaping table spoons of hate
4 tsp screams
3 tsp loneliness
*dash of frowns to add for taste
Directions:
Mix together small child plus evil monster
place in dark corner and beat until stiff
crack open the heart remove all hope
separate innocence throw away the shell
slowly blend in one cup pain,
two cups darkness and two pounds of tears
Set this aside… wait for a while
Add two teaspoons of hate
two teaspoons of silent screams
Mix in touches… add some loneliness
sift in frowns, stir until numb, remove all trust
Add remaining innocence
*Directions correctly followed and you will soon see
Fear was created in this kitchen of nightmares
A tormented Child… a soul lost
by dirty hands and unwanted touches
~L
Posted in My favorite posts, Poems by ~L
Tagged abuse, child abuse, childhood, fear, lost, poems, Poems by ~L, PTSD, Recipe
Piecing together
The intricate fragments
of my “Whole”
I am reminded of the “glue of faith”
Securing the essence of my soul.
One of the best songs ever written to our Savior! A must listen!
The morning sun has come over the horizon, and I have faced my most obsessed demon’s once again within my normal time mark. I face the dark sea of deep and dirty monsters and once again I face it with all my might Standing at the very edge of the lustful shore. my soul is tossed into the raging sea I watch as the waves swallow me whole ~L
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