Why should the world see such a mess
Witness all my tears
Avoid my cries
Shun the story behind
My damage is an unattractive story
Thus the hiding behind
Have I fallen short
Perhaps I lie in purgatory
My eyes have grown sad
As you’ve reminded me I am less
Punish me for my sickness
In order to protect your politics and church..
I have abandoned myself
In order to please you
It is high time I address this mess
And place this mask upon this shelf.
You may tell me you love me
Yet when I peel back this mask
Some will see your love is unjustified
You never ask…
too quick to dismiss
naive to this task
You have betrayed me with a kiss
You avoid my face
Punish me… forgetting grace
Seemingly I am undeserving of mercy
Gutted by your betrayal
My secrets are not the holy grail
It’s not your job to protect them
justice should not be derailed
I’m terrified to fail
Is the aftermath too gruesome to bear?
My childhood trauma too much to share
The recent shock to sickening to speak
Am I too frail
too much to inhale
You have seemed to pick up a mask yourself
You look at my face and can’t comprehend
Speak to me as if nothing happened
I am speechless myself
You remain silent, is it easier to pretend
What are you afraid the world would see
by loving me?
What do you think the world will perceive
by knowing all of me?
Will they realize the masks you preconceive
have devastated me?
Will they forgive my own mistakes?
draw a line in the sand for me?
What would they feel knowing the heartbreaking aches
from the torment that became of me?
What would they believe when they hear my sins trumped a disgust
that bruised me?
Perhaps they will wonder why judgment has been so unjust
and mercy never covered me?
I hear my creator whispering,
I have a legacy
Peel back the mask
I know it’s a task
You have a face”
(Oh wait… I have a face)?
“Yes, My child I created you just the way it’s meant to be
Open your voice
sing as you may:
Beneath your feet stand up to the day
Let the world
don’t let them get in
Never bow your head in their shame that sways
Don’t abandon who I made
you to be
Remember I made you
My grace covers you
My mercy saturates
My spirit guides you
Listen to my voice
Come into my hiding place
Let me see the beauty of your face
See the beauty of the day
I have created a world for you
Just like I have created you for the world
You have a face
I will keep you safe
Remove the mask
Live at last
You have not been misplaced
Say it with conviction”
“I have a face”
Poem Reading –
I refuse to be faceless any more to the world… I’ve removed the mask of shame and fear. This is the perfect song for this poem… if you have time… I hope you enjoy…