So I’m sure if I give it enough time the words will come.
11:00 – 11:08 – 11:20 – 11:25. …sigh
Look, I have a lot of words to say – but I think I have more tears than words. …and sometimes that’s all that needs to be said are tears, and then hope that someone will hear what can’t seem to be verbalized. — because it’s important to me.
I’ve seem to have lost the words
I’m not sure where they went…
Perhaps I’m discouraged that my depression is back and has spiraled into a pain that is unexplainable. I feel shame and guilt for feeling this way after two years of searching for wholeness and healing. What a disappointing fall. I’ve struggled with aloneness… and now that I barely write or blog… I feel like I’ve lost this community too.
I re-read many of my posts and say that’s exactly how I feel but whats the point of reposting them now? I don’t have many others that say it loud enough like:
PTSD – This is what it feels to me.
It’s just a mess right now… a discouraging and embarrassing mess. I’m trying to write… but the words just are not coming together like they used to…
missing you all