Monthly Archives: November 2011

Words vs Tears

So I’m sure if I give it enough time the words will come.
11:00 – 11:08 – 11:20 – 11:25. …sigh

Look, I have a lot of words to say – but I think I have more tears than words. …and sometimes that’s all that needs to be said are tears, and then hope that someone will hear what can’t seem to be verbalized. — because it’s important to me.

The Words Just Won’t Come…

I’ve seem to have lost the words

I’m not sure where they went…

Perhaps I’m discouraged that my depression is back and has spiraled into a pain that is unexplainable. I feel shame and guilt for feeling this way after two years of searching for wholeness and healing. What a disappointing fall. I’ve struggled with aloneness… and now that I barely write or blog… I feel like I’ve lost this community too.

I re-read many of my posts and say that’s exactly how I feel but whats the point of reposting them now? I don’t have many others that say it loud enough like:

PTSD – This is what it feels to me.

~or

Frozen

It’s just a mess right now… a discouraging and embarrassing mess. I’m trying to write… but the words just are not coming together like they used to…

missing you all

~L