PTSD

Streams and streams of tears
Mind thrown back in fear
Body feels the pain of many many years
her heart is seared
panic verbalized as broken sobs adhere

Mind now thrown solely to the right
All logic has been frozen tonight
Sealed tight
All nerves and lungs have been cascaded with fright
For an unknown has awoken her to flight
She is now ready to fight


Protection is first to arrive
Taking all control has arised
Anger now thrives
Her insides have broken into deceiving hives
And all she can sense is how to survive

All she needs to know is the known
For she fears what is not known
It flashes bright into her mind a danger zone
Truth has been postponed
It’s become overthrown
Evil deceit has now placed its self on the thrown
This broken hearted girl now lies alone

Her resentment has fed too vast
Her sense has been invaded with past
In agony she’s harassed
Her body has now fully surpassed
As reality and sensual memories contrast
Heart now beating way to fast!

Post reality
Traumatic vicinity
Stress infirmity
Disorder caused by raped virginity
And then washed with salinity
For all infinity

Where is thy Trinity?

I crave Your healing divinity!

~L

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47 responses to “PTSD

  1. very intense, powerful and all too accurate ~ it’s wonderful that you also provided links for information on PTSD.

  2. This is very powerful. I do not have PTSD, but I must admit the pain that I feel today, over something entirely unrelated, is echoed in your words. Thank you.

    http://www.benjity.wordpress.com

  3. I don’t have PTSD, but I must admit, the pain I feel today is echoed in your words. Thank you.

    • I am sorry for the pain you feel… it’s an emotional awful feeling.
      You are so welcome … I’m glad you found something that could express the way you are feeling today… Know that there is a HOPE greater then pain and sadness! That hope is what makes us able to look beyond the pain. With out that hope all we see is dispare. hugs to you today… i pray you feel hope!

  4. Your pain leaves a vivid trail through your poem. I’m glad you were able to express the intensity of it. Thanks for sharing.

  5. The image of the beautiful woman with the dirty handprints gives me a visual into the pain you experience. This post comes from deep within and it helps me comprehend the scars/pain.

  6. A portrait of fear locked in a person, a self defense mechanism that goes too far and extents pain. A sense of fighting within the victim, torturous. Must be tough to write, thanks for sharing this.

    Thanks for the info on PTSD as well.

  7. Deep powerful and expressive living with this dark cloud it seems to suck all the light from you.
    Sometimes or each day I wonder will today be my happy day.
    I could read myself in each verse.

    • I am learning that at times I need to create happy moments… like ice cream or a good movie… a realizing bath… a new CD… it’s a process. Keep hoping!

  8. love it,

    silence or body gestures are powerful languages as well.

    :)

  9. If the words you pen are true, I pray peace for you. You will find it if you seek it. In any case God bless you, for it seems your words my help others, as well.

    My offring for this first Gooseberry Garden picnic: http://charleslmashburn.wordpress.com/2011/08/21/this-eden/

  10. Tremendously, powerfully written on a subject that many don’t want to talk about. I am blessed to have been spared PTSD after 13 years of abuse. I do not hesitate to express my gratitude to the One who has covered me endlessly and most graciously. I sympathize with the plight of those who do suffer from it’s debilitatioin. Wonderful poem. God bless :)

    • Thank you so much! I have not talked much about this.. but it felt good to write about it… thank you for your comment and kindness!

  11. wordless moments shall be valued

  12. bless those victims, thanks for the highlight.

    profound and brilliant poetry.
    :)

  13. Very powerful piece on a subject which, unfortunately, many of us can relate. Thank you.

  14. Wow, very intense – and moving. Thanks for sharing this powerful write.

  15. I understand PTSD. This was a very good insight. Time, people listening, and Time will over -come these feellings. Hugs!

    • Tank you so much for taking the time to read this and leave a comment… I was nervous about posting this… I am so glad I did.

  16. whew…intense and vivid…i work with several kids that are dealing with PTSD for various things…you really open this up well…tight with emotion…

    • thanks… I wrote this while I was really struggling to stay with it and not feel so much of the memory… i typed it as fast as I could and I could barely see the screen… I edited the next day and posted… I have found from posting this specific poem how little PTSD is talked about with trauma involving abuse in kids and teens. This is something that is us… it’s a sickness and the more we hide it the more guilty we feel and it’s like we did something wrong… I don’t want to feel that way any more. Thank you so much for your comment! I really appreciate it!

  17. Oh My god this is something beyond words.Whole poem floats like a picture in my mind.And i wish it doesn’t happen with anyone.

    Alcina

  18. intense and touching……you are very brave to accept and fight the emotions….you have expressed it very well….I will sure pray for you ………

  19. a cry only the divine can hear.. nice! glad to be of acquaintance through thursday rally.. my posting this week.. http://fiveloaf.wordpress.com/2011/08/04/strength-of-faith/

  20. blessings…
    keep it up.
    your work is honest and beautiful.

  21. Sad people churn out great poems!!!

  22. I won’t say much as people who have commented have largely made the point which I had been thinking about. So, for that matter, I’ll just ‘LIKE’ this post.

    Happy rally.

  23. Very Nice Poetry with an amazing Imagination
    Great Work of Creativity !! Highly Expressive !!

    It was indeed enjoyable after reading this one !!

    Anyways, Take a look some of my Poetry Collections …

    http://ashbeezone.wordpress.com/category/talent-underground/poetry-zone/

    some of my Haiku Collections

    http://ashbeezone.wordpress.com/category/creative-challenges/the-haiku-challenge/

    and also, on my very recent Work as well

    http://ashbeezone.wordpress.com/2011/08/15/india-of-my-dream/

    !!! Happy Rally !!!
    Cheers !!

  24. I felt the struggle all the way through! Wonderful!

  25. I feel you. There always seems to be that pinprick that comes along to scratch open that scar and make it bleed again. Writing is the most healing form of release I’ve found. Very well done. ♥

    http://kaysalady.wordpress.com/2011/08/30/my-mind-is-frozen/

  26. I have no words. I had some, until I got to the last stanza, then they were gone. Peace, Linda

  27. Exceptionally well written. I have been suffering PTSD time & again due to a recurring condition of an illness. it leaves me not only weak and tired, but totally confused, exhausted and traumatised. I am here ~

    http://puplumages.wordpress.com/2011/08/30/whispers-of-the-soul/

    • Thank you for letting me know your felling and you kindness in commenting about this poem. I had no idea when I wrote this I would get this type a responce. I am sorry that you suffer from this awful sickness too… I pray that we both shall overcome this!

  28. A sad one indeed…but those rhymes are cute. :)

    Cheers!

  29. Awesome column , I’m going to spend more time learning about this topic

  30. wow – I know these words – I feel your pain.

  31. lovely,
    Happy Holidays.

  32. Wow i felt that all too intensely, unfortunately i can relate, so sorry you know this kind of pain too.

    • It’s hard to know you relate with one’s pain…. because you know the extent of how it feels to live with such pain, your heart hurts for the others you are relating with. I too am sorry for the pain you have. Be brave… I tell myself this daily, “be brave” …sometimes in life we have to be our own hero…

      ~L

      • It’s so true, you don’t wish this pain on anyone, but having others that relate is comforting at the same time. Thank you for your kind words. We really do have to take care of ourselves…for me I am giving myself, the gift of therapy…how amazing that has been. You are brave…surviving this is brave! Blessings

To all that let me know your thoughts... I appreciate each one. Thank you for reading all my Untitledmoments. ~L

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