(this time I saved all the pictures for the video at the end)

Hold On

You had asked me to fight and not give up
You told me it would be hard
but that you would never let go of my hand
I believed you
So, I started swimming

I would get tired
Yet you kept telling me “I am here”
“My love for you never fails”
You kept on believing in me
…even when I had seemed to have lost faith

Many times I felt the monsters of this sea tugging on me
it was hard!
it would get dark, cold and rough
but from time to time
you would send a good Samaritan to help me along the way

I was half way there
at the hardest part
equal distance from where the past claimed me
and where the freedom was awaiting.
It was hard
And I was scared

At time I would  want to give up
I would scream in anger and pain, “I’ve been swimming forever,
fighting this current is much too hard
are you even there…
are you listening to my cries, oh Lord” ?!?

Even through all my doubt
all my complaining
you still kept your promise
you never gave up on me
telling me “hold on”

Your words would rejuvenate me
I kept on fighting
Kept trusting
Believing by your
reminders through various ways that I was Your daughter
a daughter of the King
______________________________________________________________ (I would like to end it there… happy at this point… but this fight is not over… so here I write to tell you the truth… to tell you it’s not always just that quick to fight to the top)

Something changed
I don’t understand
I don’t trust this decision
Hold on? Stop? Why?

I feel alone
Barley treading water in this dark deep and dangerous sea
I’m fighting for my life
nearly giving up
but still waiting
waiting like you said?

My body still in pain
sharks drew near
they could smell the fear
they sensed death was near
Have I been left in the middle of this fight?

anger set in
loss became a crashing wave over me
I swear this time I thought I would drown
Yet once again you pulled me up by your hand
And again you told me to hold on… listen

I said … no, you listen!
I have to either
Sink or swim!
I’m through being stuck!
I hurt!
I’m done
Why is this fight so long!

I’m sinking with a doubt and disbelief that hope is no more
I feel weak
my body has not slept in days
It’s been so long
I don’t want to sink
but I feel tired and incomplete

Oh, my God, It doesn’t feel like you’re holding on
why do I feel so alone
alone in the shadows of the sea
Why do I question if You’re enough.
I can’t hear you… everything is too much!

And again you said
Listen
Feel
believe

I was at my last breath
I felt I had no where else to go
no where but the bottom of this oceans’ floor
“I am listening”
“I am letting go”

Ahhh…then I felt you pick me up
You began to do all the work
You began to fight the current
And fight off the monsters in this sea

I believe
I’m listening
I feel you
And I will trust in you

Even when I feel like the current will take me under
I am trusting in you
I will stop fighting
And let you carry me through

When you tell me to swim I will swim
even if it’s dark
When you tell me to tread the waters I will
even if if I’m weak
When you tell me to face a mighty giant I will
even if I’m scared
When you tell me to call onto you when I’m in need
I will trust in you

Even when it hurts
And I start to run out of faith

Lord, I will trust Your hands to hold on to Your daughter of the King

worked really hard on this video:)  Song is by 33 miles.  Hope you enjoyed.  Have a blessed day.. Let him hold on to you:)  Let Him fight for you:)