‘I am not going to shut up’

Ignite a hope again
Be the fighter that you know you are!
Stand up and tell them
“NO”! “You sit down”!
“It is my turn to heal….
my turn to say
what needs to be said”.

This is my voice
my story
and no… you may not tell me how to heal!

This… this right now is my hour to press on
my hurt
my pain
and you may not tell me to restore.
you may not tell me to forgive.
you may not tell me to hush
make peace
turn the other cheek.

You may not steal my voice from me!

Some have stolen my innocence
some have stolen my sense to react
my clarity in thinking

Some have stolen my childhood
stolen memories
my ownership of my thoughts

some have taken my dignity
some stole kisses
some stole touches
stole my safety
my understanding of love
of trust

some stole sex
they took… took with out asking
raped me from my right to say NO! To say yes.
If you wanted something from me…
you should have asked!
instead you took
and broke
and left me to hurt and suffer
to be left in confusion and wonder…

why?

what you can not steal from me though
is my voice!

I can say whatever i want
how i want
when i want.
it is my time to use my voice
and you are not allowed to tell me how
or where
or when.
I will speak whatever i want when i want

because now
right now
it is my time
i am taking back what you stole from me!

You tried to steal my hope
you almost took my life
you nearly succeeded in stealing my will to survive
but you can never ever steal my voice!

so shut up and sit down! (please)
I have a few things that need to be said

you can’t tell me how to heal
you can’t tell me how I feel
are you understanding that you can not steal

my voice is real!
~L

~truly… a must listen:)  such a great song! :)

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14 responses to “‘I am not going to shut up’

  1. Way to go, girl!

  2. Whoa…..! Powerful. I understand. People use and abuse those who trust. I’m not sure why. I’m still trying to understand why I was sucker punched one day when I thought the attacker was setting up a joke or something. I thought it funny as he asked me to stand like I was going to fight…..and then I had to get 6 stitches put in to close the gash over my eye. And the attack took place in front of others who knew what was going to happen and who I trusted and then I relearned to not trust anymore, anything, or anyone again as I had done countless times before only to learn not too, but once more failed to remember.

  3. This is indeed powerful. Although I don’t believe Gordon understands (sorry, Gordon, no offence, but being punched in the teeth does not have the depth of pain and betrayal as what has been described in this post.)

    I’m glad to read that you are using your voice to tell how you feel. Your anger, expressed in words, is healthy. You need to find the best way to heal. No-one else can tell you how to do it. Keep on speaking as you need to and it will help in the road to recovering from your terrible past.

  4. You go, girl! You just let your awesome voice be heard, and never look back! It took me a long time to learn that, and in some ways I’m still learning. So thank you for this, it brought tears to my eyes.

    you can’t tell me how to heal
    you can’t tell me how I feel
    are you understanding that you can not steal

    my voice is real!

    • :) thank you… I’m hopping to use it later today… lets hope I have the same zeal that I did when I wrote this…
      thanks for stopping by!

  5. nice, liked the way it doesnt directly rhyme…

    Cheers!!!

    • Thanks:). I tend to just writ my heart not putting much thought into if it rhymes or if words are spelled right. This specific post started as a super long text after I found out that because of ones authority I could not have the person that was supporting me as I fight my way back to life.

      It’s rare when I re read a post before I hit publish:). I vent and click send:)

      Thanks for stoping by!

  6. Neutral Universe

    I don’t wanna steal anymore. Haha! :)

  7. Never be silent. Speak the truth within you. Make it ROAR. It is part of the healing.

    – Phoenix

  8. some sadness.
    what a shout out.
    Thanks for sharing.

  9. You bring “let ‘er rip” to a whole nuther level. Tell ‘em what you really think! HA! Nice one!

    • Ha… Thanks! Yeah I was in no mood to be judged that day… And too many people were! Thanks for comment… I so smiled after reading it;)

  10. I love the power and the defiance despite all the ways life has tried to break you, its such a strong inspiring poem

To all that let me know your thoughts... I appreciate each one. Thank you for reading all my Untitledmoments. ~L

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