Monthly Archives: July 2010

no other place I want to be….

I can feel my emotions rising like a flood.
And I wonder if I’ll break today.
And Lord, If I break today…
I want to break in Your arms,
for their is no other place I want to be.

I feel as if I have nothing else to give.
Disappointment surrounds me.
And I don’t know how much more
this heavy heart can live.
I am too close to drowning.
And I feel myself falling apart.
.. sinking to the depths of this ocean floor

Give me grace to see beyond this moment here.
To believe that there is nothing left to fear.
and that you alone are high above it all
For you my God,
are hear.
And when I fall,
I want to fall into your arms,
For their is no other place I want to be…
but in the protection of your greatness.

I can feel my emotions rising like a flood.
And I wonder if I will to break today.
And if I break today
and that’s okay…
as long as when I fall …
you are near!

Lord, I want it to be in Your arms,
for their is no other place I want to be.

Mothers Secrets

Is your plan to take all of them with you
and leave you little girl in this heartache?

Is you need to keep all of them hidden
because you think its on you we’ll place the blame?

Are the scenes you keep locked far away
just to evil that terror has gripped you?

Do you lie awake at night and stare out
your window and hope I’ll find more on my own?

Or do you sleep soundly knowing that as
you fight I can’t demand for the truth to be known?

As time passes by and you swear it a lie…
do you think I’ll forget or move on?

For I can’t… don’t you see? For the
secrets help me in the healing that
I need to be strong.

Courage

Definition of Courage:(N) strength of mind to carry on in spite of danger -the moral courage to speak out against injustice when no one else will.

“The strength of mind” …Lord prepare my mind with your word, so as I face the past I will know Your truth and the freedom that it comes with.

“In spite of danger” .. Lord as I tread into dark waters to know the truth… set me free from fear and depression… Let me feel the comfort of your spirit as I began this difficult journey. Guard the corridors of my heart. Protect me from the enemy… for loosing this battle would be his delight.

“the moral courage to speak out against injustice when no one else will” Lord help me to speak… give sound to the little voice inside who needs to bring the pain out of the darkness and into the light. No one wants to talk about stuff like this, no one wants to hear about it or deal with it. And despite my family hiding this secret for so long, Lord give me your strength to stay courageous and speak against what my grandfather did to me… to stand up to my mom and not let her take my joy away.

Let me soar above sorrow, above abuse, above fear,
Lord, let me rise on your promises of love and hope.
Be the center of my life
Be the place where I fix my eyes.
You hold everything together
Draw near into your arms
with strength hold me together.
Lift my weak and weary body to rest in you… my only hope.
Cove me.
…in the stillness you are near.
Comfort me
and teach me Lord to know your peace.
I come to the cross Lord let me see Your love.

I lift my eyes to heaven
I wrap my life around Your life
and with out You none of this would be possible
~Amen

~L’s, definition of Courage: Taking what the world says is impossible or dangerous and with an almighty God step out in a faith to defeat what the enemy has tried to steal.

No words today… just a melody and tears

No words
Not understanding
Not knowing how to talk
or what to even think

Today I send up to you oh Lord a wordless prayer
wipe my tears and hold me in your loving arms

You oh, Lord are my strength
Forever to be loved by the one who knows my cry before a breath of voice can even be spoken