Well I was told this might help, writing a letter to me as a little girl…. so i tried but I don’t know if I did it right…
Dear Little girl,
Okay so I am suppose to write you a letter… and I hate this because I am such an advocate for children but this just seems so different. You know that if I could I would do everything in my power to take you away from all the pain and confusion… If I could go back in time and save you I would…. If I could warn you I would… If I could… I would have stopped it all. If I could change just one thing… go back in time and just change one thing…. It would be to save you from that evil man! I am so sorry that I can’t do that…
(this feels to weird! ‘cause I feel like I am talking to myself… I feel to attached to her…. I feel like…. This is not working…. Augh!)
I am not going to tell you it’s going to be okay, because it’s not! Your life ahead of you is going to be full of pain and heartache, but be strong… cling to what you know… reach to Jesus… He is there for you! You will have times of joy and find that after he is gone life goes on and so do you. I want you to keep fighting… don’t feel hopeless… reach for the stars… play hard and just be you!
Sometimes I think that it is you who should remind me of the faith we had at one time… on how sure we were about how God loves us….
(I don’t think I am doing this right… I feel stupid… like she is the one that is telling me it is going to be okay… she was so good at protecting her mind and I am not….I don’t know what to say… I want go back and help her… but I just don’t know how!)
~ Layla
This would be my song to her…
Hi L. Dropping by to see who you are and what you write — from a comment you left on another blog. I read a few posts and I believe you are doing everything just exactly the way you need to be doing it (for now). Your emotional vulnerability and honesty are amazing. I have always been an advocate of writing your way through and I just want to encourage you to keep doing what you are doing! It is uniquely and perfectly YOU. I am looking forward to dropping in again and reading more. You might wish to browse one particular area of my blog — Religious Lyrics. I don’t have any audio, but these are many years of words as I wandered in and out of being a minister through music. Thanks for sharing your own journey!