You know it is amazing how music can pick me out of the deepest of darkness! God is extremely amazing how he can use music to touch our hearts. I want to share a very beautiful song with you all! I hope you pass it on and share it with anyone you know that is struggling with hard times or depression. I don’t feel like writing much:) I am snuggling up with my little “butterfly” who just got home from her dad’s :) Enjoy the song:)
Truly beautiful, isn’t it:)
Posted in Healing one day at a time, Music is the heartbeat of my healing soul
Tagged depression, faith, God, hearach, hurt, kutless, music
I think I have writers block! My brain feels fried. I am so over tired! My body seems to be in shock due to lack of sleep:(
This week has been very waring on me. Really looking forward to moving on and just figuring out stuff. I need “me” back. I want my joy back, my spunk, my energy…. I want to run again and I don’t want to look back! Enjoy my day… not feel so much guilt or heartache… I don’t know… just live life, you know? Anyways I’m getting there… I’m getting there!
Posted in Healing one day at a time
Tagged getting there, lack of sleep, life, writers block
I will sing the pain, give voice to
the sadness of tearing flesh
and unending madness
______________
I want what cannot be,
what you could never begin
to give to my lost and wounded soul.
______________
Tell me that you lied
take it back if you must.
Apologize!
_____________
You cannot know, cannot begin
to feel the anger, pain and fury.
The deepest burning pits of hell
cannot contain the torment I felt.
_____________
I am guilty in the first degree of childhood lost
Sentenced by a Judas-court
the judge Satan himself.
_____________
I totally reject everything that
you ever did inside of me.
Throw it in your face, your
demon eyes that never leave,
your lies, and perverted grace.
_____________
I will sing the pain,
give voice to the madness of murdered hope
and unending sadness.
I will climb one more step out of shame.
_____________
There will be a day when you’re on trial…
Your jury… will be those who have seen the effects that your evil had on me.
And all will know who you really are.
The judge….
You better tremble because my God hates your god.
You can take back all you did to me
and go live with him in eternal flames!
…OH, and when you are begging for water…
remember that you used it all on me
when you tried downing my joy down the basement drain.
My fight song!
Posted in Poems by ~L
Tagged abuse, court, fight, fighting back, guilty, mad, one more, pain, trial
What do I know of Holy?
by: Addison road
I made this vidoe a few months ago for a church service and thought I would share it:) I love this song!
Posted in Music is the heartbeat of my healing soul
Tagged Addison Road, creation, God, Holy, music, questions, video
What a slumber
Muted thunder
The day falls like a ghost
and you are tossed
and lost
and chosen
_____________
Storms rage
Hope dies
and you have been swallowed
by a sea of unwanted memories
_____________
Flashes of past
from young and old
Clouds overhead
homing dark demons whom thirston your weakness
_____________
One more prayer
to an apparently sleeping heaven
_____________
How much longer must I pray
How much longer must I wait
…wait to hear from You.
~L
Posted in Poems by ~L
Tagged hope, memories, music, Poems by ~L, prayer, song, storms, wait
It’s worse than pain
when the memories come loose inside of me
you’re voice howls in my mind
sending me into an infinite pool of darkness
and I remember how my little stomach clenched in fear
when you whispered your ugly unwanted thoughts.
I hated you more than
anyone alive,
I hear your wrathful words eternally
like a stinging echo in my head
and I often wish you would raise from the dead
so I could tell you how I hate you so!
Is it really possible for one to just sleep ALL day long???
I feel so inadequate for life…. out of the hundred things I do in a day, i maybe do 3 things right.
What is the point???????
SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!!
If you only knew my thoughts…..
Posted in Healing one day at a time, Random Blog Posts
Tagged depression, music, sleep, superchick, thoughts
Thanks for visiting 'Untitled Moments' Where breaking the silence is a learned journey for me. Passion fills many of my posts and pain is spilled throughout ... as splashes of hope and my faith fight its way to the top, someday there they will stay in victory...humbly shinning with purpose and confidence.
One of L’s favorite blogs… check it out :) The Other 167 Hours
